Saturday, November 19, 2011

My Present State

This is where I am...Four years ago, I returned to Christ after wandering through my life for over 18 years.  I'll go more into how that came to be in a later post.  Since my return, I have been noticing things about Christianity and about Christians that I need to process through.  I have found myself frustrated and angry more often than not whenever my thoughts turn to those concerning the faith and the faithful.

Why is that?  Why can't I just let my feelings go?  I wish that it would just be that simple.

What I wish even more is that I could change the things that I see which bother me so.  The shortcomings, the blatant hypocrisy, the complete disregard for the teachings of Christ in order to keep things easy.  And most of all the lack of faith.  Not the lack of belief, but the lack of faith in that belief.

Scripture tells us to not worry about the splinter in someone else's eye when we don't first remove the giant log from our own.  I know that I am certainly not perfect and that I need to remove the log from my own eye, but I can't help but notice and be annoyed by the splinters that I see in others.

Lord God, you are amazing and wonderful.  I know that you see my sinful ways and the sins of the world and that you choose to love us in spite of it.  I lift up my thanksgiving for the gift of grace that you have given us through our lord Jesus Christ.  I ask you for patience and understanding as I look out onto the world.  Give rest to my troubled mind and peace to my soul.  In the name of Jesus Christ I pray, Amen.